Day 4 – Today
Today I hurt from yesterdays loss, the light fades but is never gone. My grief sits a top my shelf, a glow surrounding the memory of you. It stares down at me every day, wondering if I will pick it up to hold, or ignore and pretend it is not there. Today will I smile and laugh or sit and cry. What will be the trigger today, an ambulance, a song, a news story. The many ways to be reminded of you are endless. A picture, a memory, a drifting thought. The painful, unstoppable passage of time has made today more bearable but not erased and never forgotten. Today may be easier than yesterday but everyday is a gentle reminder that you are not here.
Day 5 – Rituals
Light a candle
Say a prayer
Leave the hurt in a chair
Dry your eyes with her coat
The painful memories drift afloat
Through the house your presence haunts
Todays essence of yesterdays loss
The veil we wear like a sheaf
Never gone as some believe
These are the rituals
Of child loss grief
Day 6 – Healing
Healing is an odd word, to be healed of mind is to let go, to be healed of body can mean death; no longer in pain or medical intervention that is a success; healing a wound, these two extreme opposites. Heal your heart, heal your soul, many ways we hope to find comfort in healing. Hoping to heal a friendship or a mistake, heal a hurt we may have made. Yes, healing is an odd enigma that we all search for at some point.
May you find what heals you. I have found writing has helped to heal me.
Thanks for reading,
Sheri
